6/30/95 1:26 a.m.
more thought on this 3rd mirror idea.
These are mere hypothesis.
In a sense it is really a new form of
self-reflection. It is reflection on self-reflection. For now
I will call it situation reflection. It is a 6th sense that martial
art masters refer to. The laugh of Bruce Lee.
I believe it is through development
of this 3rd mirror, that I have been able to observe my own Double
Mirrors from a distance. It is an ability to temporarily jump
out of the tunnel of parallel reflections, providing a new perspective
of the situation. Double Mirrors produces spiritual energy (or
manic-obsessive destruction in the negative), but it is this
third mirror which provides spiritual understanding.
7/2/95 3:19 a.m.
finding God on your own is sort of like
trying to fill an unplugged sink. Without the plug (or the Other)
much of the water will leak onto the floor as wasted energy.
We are not entirely spiritual, and therefore we are not entirely
whole. A man and a woman create a whole spirit. The whole is
plugged and the tub is filled with love.
It isn't easy, but some people can turn
the water high enough to fill up the sink even without the plug.
This will not stop some water from leaking down the drain (energy
wasted in manic obsessivness, self destruction, narcissism,)
and it is not a very efficient process. It tends to tire you
out. . .
It is not easy to get the car started
this way, but if you can, than God is created and the momentum
explodes upwards at an infinite level. But where does the first
burst of energy come from. God's mercy- he gives all of the individual
boost we need to reach this nirvana. It is up to us not to waste
it. For the first 18 years, God was carrying me on His shoulders,
filling me up with this energy boost. Now, thank God, the spiritual
fire seems to be burning on auto pilot, God is walking beside
me, as I promise to use my new energy to serve him. Without God;s
help I am nothing. [I hope I have written that parable about
the footsteps hanging on my wall in this story some where. This
thing is getting so big, I can't remember what I have written
already and what I haven;t ] Maybe His shoulders are occupied
helping some other unhappy kid in some other hell of family and
yeshiva demons. But God's shoulders are broad enough for us all.
He is the father of every child who doesn't have a loving father
of his own, just as the Ocean is our mother. (All life originated
in the Sea)
That sink analogy isn't the best- I'll
try to come up with a better one.
Double Mirrors without God- a jet plane
without wings headed for destruction.
we are like a ship of sailors lost at
sea during a 2000 year old storm. We were close to salvation
2000 years ago but we blew it. Jesus was nailed to a cross and
his message died with him. Judaism was sent into Exile. Centuries
of human misery was all that followed. The storm had blown us
out to sea and the ship of humanity was tossed among the waves
for 2000 millennium. The sailors got so depressed they never
bothered to come up to deck, preferring to feel sorry themselves
and stare at the rotten wooden floor of the ship. Our trance
of spiritual depression and self pity has become so deep that
we haven't even noticed the recent storm that has brought our
ship back to shore. While the ship is grounded on the beach,
we all snore below deck.
Today we have more opportunity for human
peace than ever before. Peace in the Middle East, greater freedom
than humanity has ever seen, the fall of the Soviet Union, technology
to minimize Human physical suffering, and the lessons of thousands
of years of mistakes in our search for God. . .
2000 yeas ago we also had the opportunity
for salvation from one man preaching Love. God learns from his
mistakes too. Truth is not very powerful if it invested in one
man. The rest of society fears what he has to say and kills him.
A culture, a macrocosm of the human body, kills what it can't
assimilate. While we all are waiting for Jesus, the Labavitcher
Rebbe, or some other Messiah to come back on a white horse we
are forgetting what these men tough in the first place. When
all the dust settles, God is Love, and the root of love is in
our hearts. Salvation comes from within, so the Messiah is in
each one of us. Christian, Jew, Moslem, Buddhist, atheist, or
anything else. We are all the same. We can wait forever for some
Yoda to come and save us, like panic struck fools or we can save
ourselves. This is how will serve God. By each one of us doing
our share in the battle of truth/love. Finding the strength to
spreading truth and love, and share this energy with the weak
and less fortunate. With the help of God, this energy will come
from within. But we do not own it. It is a piece of God, and
we must share it freely. Free love isn't some hippie slogan from
the 60's. It is what is going to save human kind from exterminating
Somebody needs to sound the wake up
trumpet and get us all ashore before a another storm carries
us away and its too late.
new understanding of Double Mirrors:
this answers one of the few lingering
the paradox of truth/change
life is change
life is truth
all is relative
all is absolute
No I realize the answer is neither--
it is a dynamic equations, that compounds instantly, constantly
a never ending wave of positive and
negative, life and death, past and present, Truth, and Change,
1 and 0, that builds off itself with infinite proportions.
Old Jew-- too much Absolute. . too much
NYC-- too much movement. . too much
relativism. . too much change. . no spiritual structure of Truth
to prevent the chaos of the downward spiral
but Change and truth are in fact the
2 mirrors of our minds, and need to be balanced, aligned for
either to have spiritual value. Primary reflections constantly
collecting data on our changing environments.
A superior intelligence that has evolved
to the point where it is sufficient to analyze not only all incoming
immediate date, but the impressions left by old data in our minds
as well. .
a cat fast enough to catch its own tail
. . .the experience of this "memory"
becomes a new experience of its own
forming an infinite loop
the past is constantly redefined as
we add new layers from our ever changing present.
clearly the brain cannot hold all impressions ever experienced.
. so we pancake them,. . and redefine our knowledge of "banana"
each time we taste it. ..
this effect produces a self identity
that is compounded instantly. .
Truth is the constant. . the framework
to which all of experiences falls into.
A illusion of harmony can come from
the analyzation of only our past, but the infinite energy constantly
pushing us onward, exponentially, (what we call the human spirit)
is dependent on a living and dynamic fluidity to which to test
this reservoir of Truth.
It is this flow which gives truth its
but its all just dusty archives until
we bounce if off the present. . and start the infinite dance.
the infinite dance than becomes an experience
of its own. .
too which we can remember/. . and add
to the next one.. . as our spirits grow infinitely stronger
All of human history until the scientific
revolution-- too much Truth. Not enough change to ensure the
20th century- all is relative. . nothing
is true. time speeds up, but all is chaos.
We need to find a balance
the digital revolution.. constructed
of the very material which defines God. . an infinite loop of
positive and negative... 1 and 0.. is the tool which will make
this vision happen.
The spiritual revolution
1 2 3
Marx says technological revolution is accompanied by social revolution.
Spirituality comes from people. This means a spiritual revolution
will mirror the digital revolution that is now upon us. The revolution
is raging, and even as our Ricki Lake-spray on cheese culture
of shadows soaks up the joy of ordering pizza on the "information
superhighway," a guy like me, with an MTV attention span,
and Woody Allan neurotic, has the tools to communicate. I am
plugged in, and on my way to become Hacker of the Force, Cyber-Jedi,
Son of Waves, New Jew, Full Dolphin. My dream is to put my whole
life, vision quest and all, onto a single CD ROM. Spiritual exhibitionism
at its best. . .
I found the meaning of life
but I'm a slow typer. . .
are half animal, half god. As the shadows evolve, so does our
spirit. . .
have come to an age of digital messiahs and post modern prophets.
Neurotic Jesus preaching on the World Wide Web. Will another
messiah come ridding on a white horse and save our souls? No.
A messiah is sleeping inside each of us. WE will make this explosion
of Love/ Truth/ God happen. Our parents sold out; it is up to
us to continue where they left off.
Energy flows both ways. Love, like an
atom bomb, is an energy that builds off itself. One atom splits,
creating enough energy to split another atom, and so on. My atom
is split pretty bad- stared too hard into the light, brain somewhat
blinded. . . but if I can split one other atom out there- one
other 13 year old kid still trying to recover from his neurotic
Mother- and help him to replace rage with sadness, then I have
done my share to win the battle.
Us or the cockroaches. It's up to each
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