The Doorway - the infinite regression continues.
I'm stuck in a doorway once
again, in a year which has been a doorway for all of humanity,
camped out in the middle of nowhere with a 45 day food supply,
tent, jeep, laptop and solar panels, trying to finally finish
and upload this book project.
Long Book Summary
As I write and upload two books,
which began as one, I am camped out on a remote coast line, in
a totally secluded area on the island, the southernmost
point of the island.
I did not know this upon getting here, but was most likely drawn
somehow to the same type of intense spiritual energy that drew
me to Jerusalem, where monotheistic religion first began thousands
of years ago. This editing and uploading process has dragged
on for over a month, and at moments, I am overcome by distractions,
flying helicopters, nearby boats, and other demons. I'm stuck
in a doorway once again, in a year which has been a doorway for
all of humanity, camped out in the middle of nowhere with a 45
day food supply, tent, jeep, laptop and solar panels.
The Doorway is an ongoing project, and more recent
writing can be found here: https://DoubleMirrors.com/journal.
The Doorway - 1997 2000 - the infinite regression continues.
A Doorway is where the finite borders with infinite. . . . The finite begins with doorway, and ends at a doorway where all reverts to the infinite (birth death, origin of universe etc).
The Doorway is the illusionary boundary we place between various spiritual exchanges. Doorways are used to mark levels of accepted interaction. Multiple doorways and planes can serve to deflect or protect against energy we are trying to avoid. . .
In and out of Doorways is the sexual language we comprehend as human animals manifested in spiritual terms. We are self aware spiritual creatures, functioning in the sex based world of highly evolved biological animals.
Is God a man or a woman? Neither God is what happens when the two unite.
But what is it about the doorway that is so basic to human emotion?
The doorway itself alludes
to and even mimics our double mirrors with it's parallel door
posts. Every doorway therefore amplifies our self reflection.
Every room with parallel walls amplifies the energy of our spirits.
This is in parts why a room has so much spiritual potential .
. .and why the outdoors has so much freedom- freedom from all
dormant energy that resides in all but un-entered rooms. Stay
in a single room in Jerusalem for a year or so and you will see
the meaning of life. Homes become so laden with human emotion
as more timeless energy is accumulated within their doorways.
[Ironically I am editing this book now on 10/22/00, back from an 8 days of living in a tent in a very remote Island idealic hiding spot, to a solar powered house in the shape of a dome, with circular walls. There proved to be too must distraction there after a few days, and when I moved to another secluded house down the road, a little more on the grid with a phone line, there was too much distraction to do any editing at all. I'm now back in total seclusion near the south point coast, with a tent, jeep, solar panels, external battery supply, and wireless phone plan on its way, thank God.
The universal code which can be seen throughout the universe of 2 parallel mirrors can also be seen in nearly every doorway constructed with 2 parallel door posts. Mimicking this spirit engine described in Double Mirrors, adding to or perhaps merely as a subconscious token reminder of the spiritual energy that life's entrances and exits create. No where in nature do we see parallel planes, except of course in the theoretical sense; it is this model that is in fact how the human mind functions.
But ever since project Double Mirrors which examines this and other problems our humanity creates, more ideas have been accumulating. Time has been both speeding up and slowing down, and my personal life has become every more difficult to believe.
Before I get into the philosophical ideas, here is a timeline of everything since the beginning:
So since the summer of 1996
when Project Double Mirrors- book and CD ROM were complete, much
has happened. I have gone from a NYC college grad holed up in
an East Village tiny studio with a PowerMac, to an internationally
travelling Jerusalem Jedi, island hermit, and of course web developer. My goals remain these:
Universe's fundamental problem
lack of universe - its doorways how did it begin
impossible rationally to explain first atom of matter.
Therefore , perhaps even according to its own laws, the physical
universe DOES NOT EXIST.
1 and O and the Origin of the Universe 2000/.excerpts. (see volume 2 "The Doorway" for full 36 page version. This was written in February, 2000, in Jerusalem ,in Journal form as the ideas came to me)
Very much like a digital/binary system, the universe can be seen as being made up entirely of 1s and 0s.
1 = love , manifested by life,
creativity, and existence.
infinite- that which supercedes time and space. 1 and 0. The sum of all this is God.
All that exists and all that does not exist is a manifestation of consciousness. Awareness encompasses all 1 and zero, or put another way:
Awareness = love- attachment
Where "attachment" is another term for anti-love or zero, or also referred to as need.
This is an equation I have
been writing about. but it is more complex, because there is
no time element for any of these infinite elements. It becomes
irrelevant whether the variable exists in past present or future.
so it becomes an infinitely complex, constantly flowing equation, especially when taken into account the 6 billion people interacting with eachother on this planet, nearly all aware of eachother's presence. Each human element of awareness, creating new worlds of 1 and 0, expanding the spiritual universe without end, like a massive city somehow building itself with an endless supply of self aware bricks, stones, and mortar.
The physical world does not exist but in fact exist only as elements and manifestations of infinite variable combinations of awareness. All expressed in infinite relationships of love and love (1 and 0). Objects can radiate love or need, and all objects are elements of conscienceness. So God is in rock and mountain as well. People strive to accumulate objects perceived as containing large amounts of love or the potential to produce love, not realizing that it is much more effective to strive directly for love/truth as a pure ideal which is the source for all these shadows.
[if you have 1 wish, instead of choosing something tangible, wouldn't it be more wise to chose the ability to have an infinite number of further wishes come true?]
The dance between 1 and 0:
Why does the universe exist? Why the illusion? why the matrix? why the 0 (destruction, lack of love, etc)? Would not a happy world of sunny skies make more sense?
Why are late Friday Afternoons always so dark and cloudy? Why does the sky really look different on many Monday mornings compared to happy Sunday's with family or friends in the park? Can people change the weather?
Of course- we can create anything we can imagine. We "bend spoons" all the time without realizing it.
In a single moment, not in the past present or future. . a big bang. 13 billion years ago, and also right now- an entire universe was/is being born from a drop of matter smaller than a grain of sand- scientists ponder what happened on a physical level, and attribute this explosion to the creation of the universe.
But this universe actually exploded into 2 parallel planes of 1 and 0, mirror images of eachother, and 1 and 0 became infinite. The physical universe in between became the system of interaction in which both 1 and 0 infinitely expand and contract simultaneously
God exists because he exists
now, and therefore always exists.
By definition God creates. God is all that is creative. Lack of God just is- it cannot create.
God cannot self destruct by
Well look at a couple making love. Kiss a girl, put your tongue in her mouth, and it feels nice. . so why not leave it in there permanently? Love is increased by the in and out motion. A 1 and 0 dance that ends in an increase for both sides is the binary language of the universe.
I shuddered and thought, could it be that God and a "Devil" are making love, growing mutually stronger even as each has its ebbs and peaks?
Well this is where western ideas of God must be thrown aside.
Think of a yin and yang.
there is a no devil as a sentient entity, only pure blackness, nothingness, like a black hole. . something we cannot even perceive. . lack of God, by definition is not sentient nor does it create .
it is not evil. . it is just pure nothing. it is beautiful and even part of God, because in its lack of God it serves to ultimately increase God. (a lone white dot becomes that much more beautiful when surrounded by black canvas)
the dance between 1 and 0 .
. and when they first interacted. . this was the big bang. the
physical universe, time , and space. . this is the system constructed
to host the dance.
[humanity is created in God's image- is God a man or a woman = neither, God is the result of the 2 coming together]
Of course it didn't happen in time. . there is no time on this level. . the explosion between 2 planes, and formation of "Day and Night" happened because it could happen.
1 and 0 are making love. .. both constantly increasing and infinitely feeding off of eachother. . . by default all then becomes an agent of 1. .. all becomes beautiful. . even 0, because all are contributing to more glory for 1. . of course from the other point of view all is nothing. .. and all increases 0. . . . but from an esthetic standpoint, . .. as we paint the picture, the result is the same whether we focus on negative or positive space. Either way the same painting results and is equally beautiful.
However, as humans lacking sufficient purity and effectiveness to reach the same result regardless of our perspective there is a huge difference resulting from the perspective we choose to take. Choosing to be loving and creative or destructive results in significant differences.
So God is sum of all. . . and is all. .. nothing and everything, past present and future, every piece of energy and mass in the universe and every action "good" or "bad." all must be loved accordingly.
All mater that has been perceived
or has the potential to be perceived/loved in the future, is
therefore an element of God.
All this with God's help. . I cannot outthink or out-rationalize , but through God's help know through love.
Fell asleep around 5 am contemplating how universe could originate between 2 parallel planes. . black and white of 1 and 0. . . or maybe there are many universes at different points where they interact in different dimensions?
We can't think in dimensions of consciousness rationally. .. our universe exists now because retroactively it could. . non-rationally it exploded into being a finite time ago. . but God has always existed .. than why has not the universe always existed, if the universe is part of God? Well indirectly it has. . . perhaps God is always expanding. . universe was result of the expansion into time/space through interaction of 1, 0
Could be it be that in addition
to the 1 and 0 parallel planes producing God as a massive double
mirror, a microcosmic model is also in effect>?
Consciousness lives in the world of infinite potential energy (produced by Double Mirrors, as opposed to the kinetic actual finite world of the physical universe). This potential, virtual world is fought over endlessly. . Destructive power becomes more about the bombs you could drop than the one you actually did drop. The USA won a cold war simply by achieving the most potential power without dropping a single bomb on Moscow.
On the flip side, potential Love, is fought over with even more ferocity by all people. Children are hurt, beautiful women are preyed on. And prophets are killed. It becomes impossible to exist in any group with higher levels of potential than those around you without attempts to force you to spend this energy on need or love. Or destroy you completely (Jesus' crucifixion) they had to kill him not really because they fear the alien who is different but because such high levels of consciousness would destroy all those unable or too fearful to convert this amount energy to love. . . all of Jerusalem who could not love at this magnitude would develop huge needs as a result . (the only remaining variable to increase). .. The people would effectively drown in this wave of energy as they panic. .. so for the corrupted and spiritually decayed masses, killing a prophet is actual self preservation.
The Digital Prophet:
Excerpt from DoubleMirrors.com intro page:
Karl Marx says technological
revolution is accompanied by social revolution. Spirituality
comes from people. This means a spiritual revolution will mirror
the digital revolution that is upon us. The revolution is raging,
and even as our Ricki Lake-spray on cheese culture of shadows
soaks up the joy of ordering pizza on the "information superhighway,"
a guy like me, with an MTV attention span, and Woody Allan neurotic,
has the tools to communicate. I am plugged in, and my dream is
to put my whole life, vision quest and all, onto a single CD
ROM. Spiritual exhibitionism at its best! We are half animal,
half god. As the shadows evolve, so does our spirit. . .We have
come to an age of digital messiahs and post modern prophets.
Neurotic Jesus preaching on the World Wide Web. Will another
messiah come ridding on a white horse and save our souls? No.
A messiah is sleeping inside each of us. WE will make this explosion
of Love/ Truth/ God happen.
In other words: through evolving technologically, enhanced with digital tools, we have an opportunity to transcend spiritually as well. The future of prophets, in this increasingly corrupt and non-spiritual world, is digital. [In fact these digital islands might find refuge as wired hermits, living on remote islands, much as the priests and Levvites left Jerusalem 3000 years ago, due to the political corruption , took the Ark of Covenant with them, and settled in Ethiopia, where they would have seclusion and purity.]
Back to 2/2000 Jerusalem Journal:
A prophet must accumulate massive consciousness levels. . through thinking, living, contemplation, self examination, awareness, love, reduction of need/attachment etc.
Often, the only way to survive for those with a spiritual mission is to be a hermit. . to close off all leaks that would kill you or your vision. ..
Or to choose martyrdom for sake of message. . this worked for Jesus and his contribution of consciousness was perhaps greatest of any single human.
Or to spend it all at its peak
(highest potential) on loving dolphins, waves, machines or some
lucky woman if you are able to in a truly loving way (difficult-
easier to be a hermit, especially if demons haven't been groked
(manifested)away) (peak of kinetic), . .. and then if she reciprocates
the love. . the infinite prize is a baby. . and the potential
energy peaks once more. . this time even higher than his prophet
father who may now reap the indirect tier benefits of the blessing
of a possible prophet son.
(as I type this the local Jerusalem neighborhood madman is yelling through speaker, and cars go by attempting to grab a piece of this new raw consciousness. I cover my ears and turn on techno music truly making them go away, not just in the imaginary sense.)
What is the origin of first drop of consciousness that originated these infinite planes of 1 and 0. . . and the entire universe? The potential for self aware entities to be created. . . this is what created the universe. .. in the beginning there was nothing and everything at once and at once all in between. ..
Take away the illusion of time and the spatial universe. . . and compress all infinite energy into one moment and one atom. . this is what by logic must spread out into 1 or more universes like the one we are now living in.
God creates Man and Man creates God in same moment. . . God retroactively explains how we got here. . and we retroactively explain God.
The meaning of Life (excerpt from Journal 4/8/00, Island: Shabbat afternoon, perhaps the final peace in puzzle on how to articulate "everything" hits me:
To love love
What is the meaning of life? Meaning!
We give meaning to all that we perceive. All perceived reality manifests as new reality based on the meaning which we, as self aware beings, provide.
We determine the meaning of our lives based on how we choose to define our perceived experience. This is how new realities are continually, created, compounding instantly.
Do not let others define your meaning. . pollute your spirit by entering and stealing and corrupting what is your purpose as a self aware being to define and build meanings of harmony as only each of us can do on our own. How could I know what is possibly harmonious with every experience you have lived? Only you know this deep in your soul. By being a hermit I ensure no one else is defining me, or "smudging" my mirrors, which have been struggling to polish and align to the best of my ability, the way I know how . Only time you want someone to provide meaning for you is if they are loving you- they are affirming your existence as an element of love.
The meaning of life is meaning.
All non loving perception must be avoided. As one of the first responders to the Double Mirror theory uploaded to DoubleMirrors.com pointed out- that which is perceived has been proven in Quantum Physics to change on the most basic sub-atomic level!! This isn't just new age theories. . . scary huh.
So I go to Tahiti next week to drink water, grok and purify, thank God now stocked up on survival tools. God willing I will find total dolphin island seclusion immediately thereafter, in which case I will upload all that you have now read.
God is Great.
Infinite regression of Big Bangs:
Universe origin big bang- possibly occurred at same moment as last universe compressed fully. . doorway between the 2. .. the physical universe is finite but there have been an infinite number of universes before this. . . Separated only by time. ..each recycled, but containing the same spiritual energy, which is timeless. In the spiritual universe nothing ever changes all remains constant an infinite plane of 1 and 0 interacting as usual . . sort of makes used car dealerships suddenly not that bad. . . of course they didn't have a big bang to purify the exchange. . .
. many universes with 1/0 and physical worlds in between are in existence each creating the next like a chain reaction. .. .. . they all lead in one big circle. . . infinitely creating eachother. No one universe can explain its own existence. . the symbiotic relationship of 1/0 and the physical doorways that facilitate the dialogue in between, is what they all share. .
each universe separated by time. . or by other dimensions we cannot comprehend such as the dimension of potential energy- the universe of all that has the potential of existing.
the infinite 1 and infinite 0 are the infinite parallel planes in between which all this occurs.
Makes you amazed to think how small we are. . wow. . . one man in one world in a world of worlds. . one self aware entity in one universe in a universe of universes of universes. . .
Because the universe is itself an illusion- (because it had no way of being originated), there is no single universe that is more "real" than the infinite number of other universes in the infinite regression. .
. universe will also end. . just as it began. . it is finite. . . then new universe will begin. . just as this one did. . . so new universe already exists. . . because it will exists.. . . so there are an infinite number of physical universes. . none of which are really here. . .
[so you can be certain that whatever you are doing right now, no matter how bizarre, there is an infinite regression of identical you's doing the exact same thing in other world's. . the chances are 1 in 10000000000000000 perhaps, but this is more than sufficient considering the infinite regression of worlds]
All there is 1 and 0. . . everything in between these 2 planes is the physical necessity/reality. . . a culmination of a beautiful act of love making. . . but very much an illusion. . a mere projection of the parallel mirrors of God.
Can people hurt you?
Nothing is a bad. . . no need
to be sad. .. no one can hurt you. . . you are infinite. .. .
. because you have the potential to be. .. . . because I was
Son of Waves for one instant. . this 1 entity/creator /lover
of waves and dolphins is infinite.. . become immortal for at
least a moment, and you are always immortal. .. strive to reach
this moment . your soul is infinite. .. take away 10000 in "damage
points", and you are still infinite. . . cars passing outside,
neighbors. . nothing can affect you. . . all it can do is convince
you to revert to 0, to cease motion and creativity, and let infinite
play out as a lack of 1. . . a lack of motion. . . this is also
not bad in itself. . God is victorious and as simply being a
self aware entity, NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO OR HOW YOU ACT OR WHO
HURTS YOU, God LOVES you, and your very existence is an act of
As they force you into 0. .. 1 bounces back stronger. .. a universe of positive potential and love, and good things are then created in the same fashion as all the other universes around us. . .movies, books, acts of love, planets, solar systems, minds, lifetimes, galaxies, etc. . .no one is more real or even relatively more significant than an other. . .
1 human life or one galaxy. . both have same relative value. . . each is just one tiny drop in the God equation, but as integral as any strand of DNA- containing the same exact laws governing the others.
Any atom, any cell, any planet. .. each would be enough to reverse hack the meaning of life.
Egos are only in the same world by illusion. in reality we are only joined in the same world when we love. so hatred can only affect us in one way- by convincing us to self destruct. We create our own realities.
when we interact with the other
worlds/people around us. .. then our life can be destroyed through
any number of ways. . . people are masters at inspiring need,
turning off your electricity, slapping you in the face, etc
In a loving world hurting someone else also becomes self destructive (we are all sharing the same pool of love) since all humans have at least some 1, and we all share the same planet, and mix all of our energy every time we eat or flush the toilet, then hurting someone else is also hurting yourself. (so it's a multi-leveled and mutual self destruction, whenever one human hurts another).
so in a predatorial society. . all cities. . self love (that we are entitled to positive dreams/realities) is what everyone is fighting over. . .
in my very unusual situation, as a wired hermit on a remote island, with little human interaction the energy is saved, thank God, if not fully, at least enough for me to finally publish this book, after 6 years of struggle.
The matrix ends when we understand these points.. . . why did it take this long to figure out? Well its tough to think when they don't give a guy some peace and quite. .. island here I come. [I'm now editing this book in island seclusion. ]
God is Great.
Life began in the sea. Life
is water. Spirituality acts just like waves of the ocean. . except
the waves of our spirit are infinite, and build off themselves.
. growing stronger always. . compounding instantly, forming new
worlds of the positive and negative, 1 and 0, as we shoot forward
into our self-generated realities
And the saga continues. . stay tuned for further updates. "The Doorway" has been unpublished on 12/28/19. You can still read my original journal entries: https://DoubleMirrors.com/journal